Sometimes gums bleed but sometimes just one gum bleeds and it’s thin. It’s not like a boxer who spits blood which is satisfying and maybe even, cross fingers, viscous. Like a boxer and when he spits blood it’s a ROPE, and it hits the mat and bounces, and SPLATS, I mean it really CONNECTS!
When my one gum bleeds it is the upper left incisor, your upper left. It is a very feminine bleed. It wells a little in the archway where the bone dips below the gum, a thin red line I try to swish away with sink water; when I swish the line disappears and I watch it decide whether or not to come back, and it does come back, all feminine, kind of sorry to have to keep it up. It wells back up very gentle, like quiet, and that makes me mad! Because this thin bleed won’t STOP though I swish and fucking swish, and I want to go do something else, or at least brush some other tooth, but my best friend told me if there’s blood you have to keep going, brush anyway, brush more to reverse the swelling.
But I’m not practicing good oral hygiene here, that’s not what this is. I want to punish this thin bleed for being so quiet about her insistence on reemerging, that total idiot, I mean god what a moron. I wish she were a gusher, I wish she wouldn’t cry. My spit is salmon and that’s not enough. I try to make the bristles like a punch to her face over and over even though the package says these bristles are the soft kind. Not today they’re not, not the way I’m using ‘em.
I’ll give her a reason to swell! I’ll give her a reason that’s real.